Hey guys. I'm sorry for doing this to you guys and making you listen to my stupid life but here we go. Im realy confused right now. I used to be "disliked" by a few girls but not they are being nice? This time the boys are making fun of me and I don't know where to turn to so....yah.....i turned to you guys. Life used to be better even when I was teased by the girls. I had amazing friends from my lacrosse team and my coach always loved "bragging" about me because I was apparently AMAZING at lax. But this last practice its like I was pushed out. I only got the ball once in the entire 1 hr and 45 min scrimmage practice. I also feel like I cant turn to my friends. I feel like they aren't noticed enough to be picked on but apparently I am? At school I'm the "I realy dont care what you say about me" And I dont but I still realy hurts me. My thoughts have gotten a little dark and sometimes I just feel like i'd be nice to run away for one day to be by myself and clear my head. I feel like my friends randomly get mad at me and It's almost like my friends dont realy care about me. My best friend in the whole wide world is becoming a little bratty at school. She brags to me about anything she can and she tries to hang out with the popular girls at school instead of me whenever she can. But when we walk home together, she's back to herself. I don't realy know why I am making this post. Im just realy confused. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep and sometimes I just stare at the ceiling letting my thoughts flood my head. Whenever my parents get mad at me for the slightest think I end up yelling and crying. It's like I can't do anything right. I know some of you have gone through worse and I hate to pick on you but if you have anything to say please tell me. I'm just realy confused so im sorry if im a little absent.
I feel like id be nice to just go where no one will hate you and no one will bother you. Just to leave your old life behind. Sadly there's no place on this hating planet to do that!!!! *sigh* Thank you for your time.