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Hey guys. I'm sorry for doing this to you guys and making you listen to my stupid life but here we go. Im realy confused right now. I used to be "disliked" by a few girls but not they are being nice? This time the boys are making fun of me and I don't know where to turn to so....yah.....i turned to you guys. Life used to be better even when I was teased by the girls. I had amazing friends from my lacrosse team and my coach always loved "bragging" about me because I was apparently AMAZING at lax. But this last practice its like I was pushed out. I only got the ball once in the entire 1 hr and 45 min scrimmage practice. I also feel like I cant turn to my friends. I feel like they aren't noticed enough to be picked on but apparently I am? At school I'm the "I realy dont care what you say about me" And I dont but I still realy hurts me. My thoughts have gotten a little dark and sometimes I just feel like i'd be nice to run away for one day to be by myself and clear my head. I feel like my friends randomly get mad at me and It's almost like my friends dont realy care about me. My best friend in the whole wide world is becoming a little bratty at school. She brags to me about anything she can and she tries to hang out with the popular girls at school instead of me whenever she can. But when we walk home together, she's back to herself. I don't realy know why I am making this post. Im just realy confused. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep and sometimes I just stare at the ceiling letting my thoughts flood my head. Whenever my parents get mad at me for the slightest think I end up yelling and crying. It's like I can't do anything right. I know some of you have gone through worse and I hate to pick on you but if you have anything to say please tell me. I'm just realy confused so im sorry if im a little absent.
I feel like id be nice to just go where no one will hate you and no one will bother you. Just to leave your old life behind. Sadly there's no place on this hating planet to do that!!!! *sigh* Thank you for your time.
-Starleaf
I am sorry to hear I have the same problem I mean sure maybe I have SOME friends but not a whole lot and I usually end up spending a lot of time by myself and at the end of the day I am really moody but do you know what? I don't care what other people think of me I be myself I am not changing who I am just because some people don't like me so just be yourself Starleaf because you don't have to pretend to be someone your not. In fact maybe people like you the way you are
Don't be afraid to stand out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEZzH-dWDOU&list=RDvEZzH-dWDOU&index=1
This is a seriously similar situation. Like, sooooo many people on here have been in almost the same situation as you, so I'd say you came to the right place:
Don't ever apologize for venting on here. It's our choice to read posts like this, you're not forcing us to do anything
Like Echo said, your best friend just might be trying to become popular. A lot of tween/early teen girls do, so my advice is either a) talk to her about it; or b) just stick it out
So what you had a bad practice? It may have just been an off day for you, so don't let it get to you. If you start thinking that this your new normal, then it will. Don't make it a self fulfilling prophecy
Okay, so the problem with the freaking out at your parents with every little thing was seriously me when I was 11, 12, 13, and 14, so I totally get how annoying it can be. My advice, is just try to roll with it, don't let it get your down, and keep going.
Hope this helps.
one:
your best friend is probably being consumed by the fact that she wants to be popular at school. if she's only like that around the popular girls but back to normal around you, that would be the case. I think you should just talk to her about how what she's doing is actually effecting you in negative ways, and let her know you're always there for her.
two: do you have a google hangouts account?
three: trust me. blaming yourself after venting to us all is not a good thing. been there, done that. listen: we're all here for you, okay? we want to listen and help you in any way we can. so don't ever think you're a burden, alright? and never bottle up your feelings. it can cause chaos.
as for in real life, you probably already know and understand that there are some (most) things we can't do, because we're all so far away (especially me. g'day from Australia!), and so then you'll need to find help in someone who can reach you. I suggest reaching out to your parents, siblings, or any trusted adults or friends you have close to you (physically, obviously).
sorry this was short, I hope I could help in any way. God bless you, Starleaf.