ROTR #3, BENEATH THE WEEPING CLOUDS-READ SAMPLE!

JENNIFER LYNN ALVAREZ'S

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Book Series Starring Flying & Mythical Horses

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    Echomoon
    Jun 04, 2019

    Sorry for spamming posts + aaAAAAAAaAaaaaaaAaAaaaaAAAAAAA

    in HERD CHAT

    first, sorry for spamming posts................ wOOPS

    second,

    my depression is eating me alive :) please give me reasons not to end it all. I know Rain's doing better but my mind keeps coming up with excuses to be worried and miserable. "If she's doing fine, why hasn't she come back? She could be lying... am I one of the fake friends she's talking about? Why does she think that? Did I do something wrong? Will she ever talk to me again? Did I miss my chance?"


    My mind's a kaleidoscope

    It thinks too fast

    Blurs all the colours

    'Till I can't see past


    The last mistake, the choice I make

    Starin' in the mirror, myself to blame


    Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside

    No where to hide inside my mind

    I'm scared that you'll compare

    And I'll look a lifetime past repair


    I second guess myself to death

    I re-solicit every step


    "What if my words are meaningless?

    What if my heart's misleading this?"


    I try to capture every moment as it comes to me

    Bottle up the memories

    And let them keep me

    Company


    ...


    When I'm old and grey or thirty

    Or whatever happens first

    I'll need you to reassure me

    I didn't waste a verse!


    Or worse, what if my life's worth is reduced to just myself?

    Like I'd never let ya get a word in

    While I dissect my mental health


    Or lack thereof, whatever

    There's too many things to track

    I really can't remember

    If I'm insane or insomniac


    And nowadays, all these kids want crazy

    Wanna diagnose themselves

    Trade up made up epidemics

    Pass around prescription pills


    But my disorder can't be cured

    By a bottle, blade or dose

    Self-disgust and selfishness

    Tend to hold me awfully close


    But I don't wanna let you see that

    I don't want my friends to know!

    Self-disgust and selfishness

    Take me every where I go


    ...


    Try as I might, to keep it together!

    Why is recovery taking forever?

    Fool the whole world, just until I get better!


    I'm terrified I'll be faking forever...

    Faking forever...


    - Hope of Morning, Icon For Hire

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