She let him trace her scars, not minding. "I'm scared of turning out like my mother and I'm scared of being abandoned. B-but most of all I'm scared to let there to be chinks in my armor."
He lowered hair sword, "sure what is it?" He asked turning to look at her, his gaze traveling up Sasha, he smiled slightly seeing her shrot sleeved shirt and her hair down .
"Listen," he said, "I doubt he'll leave you, if I've heard correctly, you two have been friends for 10 years, and are now engaged , I doubt he'll leave you,"
"That's what Leo says too but that's not true. That rather crazy part of me that I called Dakur Sasha, turns out that's the real me. Yeah, didn't see that coming did ya."
"As far as I know, that doesn't make you who you are," he said, "I too grew up Dakurian, I wasn't the son of any murders, but I only lived with my father and he was drunk all the time,"
"I'm the daughter of a murderess, I'm not Sandween I'm Dakurian. Both sets of my parents didn't love me and treated me badly. I have these stupid ugly scars and I am not normal like my twin sister."
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Sasha:
She smiled slightly
Leo,
He gently ran his fingers through her hair again.
Sasha:
"I know you're scared of loosing me. And I promise you never will."
Leo,
He kept his arms lovingly around her.
Sasha:
She didn't stop hugging him
Leo
"Well, I do understand, " he murmured softly.
Sasha:
"I w-was worried you wouldn't understand, even though Haymitch said you would."
Leo
He hugged her back, gently running his fingers through her hair.
Sasha; She hugged him
Leo,
"I do,"
Sasha:
"You d-do?"
Leo
"Sasha, it's alright, " he murmured, "I understand, "
Sasha:
She was quiet. "I'm sorry I jsut......"
Leo,
"Sasha, that's alright, "
Sasha:
She looked away, "It's hard for me to talk about this, even with you."
Leo
"It's alright Sasha, " he murmured,
Sasha:
"I'm sorry, I really am working on it."
Leo,
He looked over at her.
Sasha:
She looked up at him. "And so whenever anything reminds me of them I jsut kinda shut down. I lash out because I don't want to remember."
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Leo,
"I have all those samw fears" he murmured.
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Sasha:
She let him trace her scars, not minding. "I'm scared of turning out like my mother and I'm scared of being abandoned. B-but most of all I'm scared to let there to be chinks in my armor."
Leo,
"I guess," he murmured, still tracing her scars.
Sasha:
"D-do you want to talk about it?"
Leo
He gently traced the scars on her arm, "I'm honestly, scared of a lot of things also," he murmured.
Sasha:
"Scared of a lot of things....." she didn't look up at him
Leo,
"Scared about what?" He murmured.
Sasha:
She took a deep breath. "I got upset because I was scared."
his.,
"I forgive you," he murmured.
Sasha:
"I'm sorry I got upset earlier. Please forgive me."
Leo
"Alright, " he said sitting down next to her, and gently took her hand in his.
Sasha:
"I th-think we need to talk about them openly." she sat down, still rubbing her arm
Leo,
"What about them?" He asked tilting his head slightly.
Sasha:
She was nervously rubbing her arm.
Leo
He nodded slightly then walked over to Sasha
Sasha:
She was blushing quite a bit. "F-first of all. I think we need to talk about our fears."
Heath:
He nodded. "Thanks for the lesson Leo." and he left
Sasha:
She blushed slightly. "W-without Heath around please."
Leo,
He lowered hair sword, "sure what is it?" He asked turning to look at her, his gaze traveling up Sasha, he smiled slightly seeing her shrot sleeved shirt and her hair down .
Heath:
He saw Sasha and backed away. Not wanting to fight with ehr again.
Sasha:
"I n-need to talk to you Leo."
Leo
He took a step back and swung his sword to his waist.
Heath:
He sword fought with Leo.
Sasha:
She changed into a short sleeve flowy black tunic and new leggings. She left her hair loose and walked down stairs
Haymitch,
He went to patrolling the halls.
Sasha:
She nodded and headed up to her room to change before she went to talk to Leo
Haymitch,
"I won't, "
Sasha:
"If he doesn't understand I'm taking Nasim and going to a different clan. Should I leave please don't tell him where I went."
Haymitch,
He nodded slightly.
Sasha:
"If he doesn't..... I'm not staying here."
Haymitch,
"I think he will,"
Sasha:
"What if he doesn't understand?"
Haymitch,
He nodded slightly.
Sasha:
"O-ok. I'm gonna talk to him."
Haymitch,
"I know you can, and its alrigjt to have chinks in your armor, it may make it easier for Leo to understand,"
Sasha:
"But I'm scared. Scared to talk about this with him. Scared to let there be chinks in my armor."
Haymitch,
"Talk it out with him, that's my suggestion, "
Sasha:
"He was being kind and I got angry at him. I wasn't his fault."
Haymitch,
"I'm sure he wants to talk with you, still, "
Sasha:
"You sure he even wants to talk to me? We were fighting. It was stupid, I shouldn't have gotten angry the way I did, he didn't do anything wrong."
Haymitch,
Hs shrugged slightly, "wrll, its up to you of you want to talk with him.
Sasha:
"11 years. What I say still stands true."
Haymitch,
"Listen," he said, "I doubt he'll leave you, if I've heard correctly, you two have been friends for 10 years, and are now engaged , I doubt he'll leave you,"
Sasha:
"What if he does?! If he leaves I. Will. Die."
Haymitch,
"You still should talk to him about your fears," he said with a kind smile, "I doubt he'll leave you.
Sasha:
She shrugged. "I never know. He might and I can't survive on my own anymore."
Haymitch,
"I've seen how he looks at you, and how happy you make him, O highly doubt he'll leave you, "
Sasha:
"What if I talk to him about it and he decides I'm not worth the trouble, or I'm to much of a mess. And he leaves."
Haymitch,
"You both have alof in common, I say, you both should talk it out,but,that's up to you two,",
Sasha:
"Me too. What if I turn into the monster my real parents and adoptive dad are. What if Leo dies or disapears, what if I'm not good enough."
Haymitch,
"Leo always worries about all the 'what ifs' like, what if I fail, what if I turn out like my father, all those,"
Sasha:
"But he won't lose me."
Haymitch,
"He just is afraid," he said, "he doesn't know how or why, he would lose you, he's just afraid,"
Sasha:
"Why and how would he lose me?"
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Leo
"Work on aiming where I'm not defending,: he said.
Haymitch,
He leaned on the wall across from Sasha,
"He's afraid, he may not sound, or look afraid, but, he is.
He's afraid of loosing you, afraid of loosijg the ones he cares about," he said,
"Afraid of turning out like his father.
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Sasha:
"Go ahead. What is there that I don't already know?" she leaned against a wall.
Heath:
"Um..... How do I attack you?" he asked, blocking
Leo
"Another thing," he said lunging fir hsi side, "is the opponent won't always be the one to make the first move,"
Haymitch,
He sighed, "alright, let me tell you a few things about Leo, that he probably hahasn'admitted,"
Sasha:
"I'm not alright. I will never be alright." her eyes were filled with a look of lostness.
Heath:
He raised his sword in a block
Haymitch,
"To make sure you're alright, "
Leo
He braced for attack.
Heath:
He regained his balance
Sasha:
She shrugged before turning around. Her face emotionless and her blue eyes blank. "Do you need something?"
Haymitch,
"I've told that same thing to Leo," he replied.
Leo,
hE readied his sword.
Heath:
He stumbled again
Sasha:
She shrugged, still walking. "Try explaining that to Leo."
Haymitch,
He raised an eyebrow, "every part of you is the real you. Even the parts you hate,"
Sasha:
"That's what Leo says too but that's not true. That rather crazy part of me that I called Dakur Sasha, turns out that's the real me. Yeah, didn't see that coming did ya."
Le0o
Hw moved his sword ducked and swung for his legs.
Haymitch,
"As far as I know, that doesn't make you who you are," he said, "I too grew up Dakurian, I wasn't the son of any murders, but I only lived with my father and he was drunk all the time,"
Sasha:
"I'm the daughter of a murderess, I'm not Sandween I'm Dakurian. Both sets of my parents didn't love me and treated me badly. I have these stupid ugly scars and I am not normal like my twin sister."
Heath:
He blocked
Haymitch,
"Anyof them, the ones that are bothering you,"
Leo
Once Heath was ready he lunged for his side.
Heath:
He nodded
Sasha:
"A lot of things are wrong in my life. Which one are you talking about this time?" she made sure her sleeves were firmly pulled down over her scars
Haymitch,
"I can tell sometjing is wrong,"
Leo,
"I see one thing you need to work on so far, well, two things, stance, and grip,"
Sasha:
"What do you mean?" she asked Haymitch without looking at him.
Heath:
He tried to block but his sword was knocked from his hands
Haymitch,
He walked after Sasha, "What's bothering you? :
Leo,
He quickly spun and aimed for the leg.
Sasha:
She ignored Haymitch, her hands on her hips as she stared the guard down. He finally moved away from the door and she walked inside the palace.
Heath:
He braced for an attack
Leo
He drew his sword readying it.
Haymitch,
He caught up to Sasha.
Guard:
"Who do you think you are?! Go around me. I'm not moving!"
Sasha:
"Move or I'll make you move."
Heath:
He sighed, readying his sword
Leo,
"Listen, she's been dealing with a lot, these last few days,"
Haymitch,
"Sasha, wait up," he said.
Heath:
"So that makes it ok for her to be a jerk?"
Sasha:
She glared at a guard who refused to move. "Get out of my way." she snarled
Leo
"She's had a rough past," he murmuredm
Haymitch,
He saw Sasha and walked after her.
Sasha:
She slammed past guards, not caring