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Sasha:

She had tear streaks on her face as she looked at him

Leo

He quickly glanced at Sasha.

Sasha:

She looked at him for a second

Leo

"I'm sorry," he murmured, head still resting on his knees.

Sasha:

"I d-din't want to be held down while she cleaned my wound. It was scarry."

Leo

"Yes it did," he murmured, "there was a lot of dry blood on it, "

Sasha:

"It would have been fine. It didn't need to be cleaned."

Leo

"You needed to get your wound cleaned, belive me, I didn't want to hold you down," he murmured quietly.

Sasha:

"Why didn't you listen to me?" she asked softly, her voice shaking

Leo

Hw ran a hand through his hair.

Sasha:

She wanted to walk but wasn't sure what to say

Leo

He rested his head on his knees.

Sasha:

She shook with muffled sobs

Leo

He sighed softly.

Sasha:

She was shaking and didn't look at him

Leo

"Really, I'm sorry,"

Sasha:

she flinched, curled up as small as she could

Leo

He glanced over at Sasha, "I'm sorry, " he murmured softly.

Ivory:

"There you go." she packed up her medical supplies and left

Leo

"That's good," ye murmured.

Sasha:

She scooted away from Leo as fast as she could. Curling up in the corner, covering her head with her hands.

Ivory:

She started cleaning Leo's wound. "Your wound is healing nicely."

Leo ,

He gently let go of Sasha.

Sasha:

She kept struggling to get free, not wanting to be anywhere near Leo or Ivory

Ivory:

"There." she finished cleaning her wound

Leo

He winced, "once Ivorys done cleaning your wound," he murmured.

Ivory:

She winced at Sasha's pain, There was quiet a bit of blood from her wound that she had to clean

Sasha:

"LET ME GO! LET ME GO!" she sobbed, whimpers of pain escaping her as Ivory cleaned her wound. She kept thrashing, trying to get free

Leo

"Sasha, it's alright," he murmured. Wishing she didn't have to endure this.

Sasha:

her eyes widened with panic and she tried to free herself, thrashing and trying to escape.

Ivory:

She started trying to clean Sasha's wound. Wincing at the whimpers of pain

Leo,

He wrapped an arm around her to hold her still.

Ivory:

She grabbed the supplies to clean Sasha's wound, she nodded to Leo

Leo

"Yeah" he murmured, knowing Sasha would hate it, but, she needed to get it cleaned.

Ivory:

"Can you help hold her still while I clean her wound?"

Leo

,"I don't know,"

Sasha:

She rocked back and forth

Ivory:

"What should we do?" she asked Leo.

Leo

He glanced at Lyra.

Ivory:

She looked at Leo

Sasha:

She shook her head, scooting away from Leo's hug. "N-n-no."

Leo,

"She needs to clean it," he murmured .

Sasha:

She relaxed slightly but tensed again when the door opened.

Ivory:

She walked over to them

Leo

He gently pulled her into a hug.

Sasha:

"No." she was near tears and her voice sounded like it

Leo

"Yes, she does," he murmured, "she needs to make sure that it's healing. "

Sasha:

"She doesn't n-need to c-clean it." she pulled the blanket over her head

Leo

"It will hurt worse maybe, if she cleans it," he murmured, "and, I don't know if she'll end up like Lyra, all I know, is that. We stick together, " he murmured.

Sasha:

"It m-makes it h-hurt w-worse. A-and wh-what if sh-she's l-like L-Lyra?"

Leo

"Why not, " he murmured .

Sasha:

She grew more tense. "I w-won't l-let her c-clean my w-wound."

Leo

He gently rubbed her back.

Sasha:

She didn't relax, still checking for danger

Leo

"Sasha, you're safe," he murmured.

Sasha:

She was extremely tense, her eyes looking around, searching for danger

Leo,

He gently set a hand on her back.

Sasha:

She stayed curled in a ball. Her head resting on her knees.

Leo

"What is it Sasha?" He murmured.

Ivory:

She left

Leo

He nodded.

Ivory:

"I'll be back in 15 minutes."

Leo

He looked back at Ivory, "are you able to come back in a little while? "

Sasha:

She shook her head faster. "N-no."

Leo

"She does," he murmured, "it'll help it heal,"

Sasha:

"My wound in fine."

Ivory:

"Sasha I need to clean your wound."

(Nice)

Leo

"Then what is it?" He murmured.

Sasha:

She shook her head.

(Nice, we don't know how tall my boy will be but he'll weigh about 80 to 90 pounds)

(About 18-21 inches, she is like a medium size dog, (Border Collie)

Leo

"Would it be better if I cleaned it?" He murmured.

Sasha:

"No." she curled tighter into a ball.

(That's always fun! How big will your puppy be when it is full grown?

(Same here, )

Leo

"Sasha,, she needs to clean your wound," hd murmured.

(Hopefully I'm going to go puppy shopping for toys and stuff this week though)

(I completely understand that. I feel the exact same way right now. I wish I had some tips I could share for how to cope with it but I don't because I'm not coping with it well (Switching between, "I'M GONNA FAIL!!!!" and "I can do this." about every two minutes)

Sasha:

She shook her head faster

Leo,

"Sasha," he murmured, "she needs to do it,"

(Ack, I'm so worried I'm going to fail my puppy, Anxiety as been driving me crazy with all the 'What Ifs' and I can't shut up my brain)

Ivory:

She opened the door. "I need to check on and clean both of your wounds." she said.

Sasha:

She shook her head, curling into a ball

Leo,

"Come in,"

Ivory:

"Ivory." she said

Leo

"Who is it?" He called out, gently setting his hand on Sasha's.

Sasha:

She nodded. "I'm sorry, I don't know why I'm acting like this."

Ivory:

She knocked on their door

Leo

He smirked slightly, "Probably, " he murmured, gently running his fingers through her hair,

"And Sasha, I doubt you'll turn out like her.

You've already fought so hard to be where you are now, "

(Last comment)

Sasha:

She lay limp in his hug, still not convinced. "Probably a good thing you have my dagger."

(Bye,)

Leo

He pulled her into a hug, "you won't end up like her," he mur

Sasha:

She finally relaxed with a soft sigh, "I'm scared I'll end up like her. I mean. She couldn't have loved me, could she? She didn't give up being a crimanal to raise me and Tuli."

(I gtg for the night)

Leo,

He kept running his fingers through her hair.

Sasha:

She started to relax slightly, still tense but not as much as before.

Leo

"I highly doubt you'll turn out like her," he murmured.

Sasha:

"I don't want to turn out like her. I want to be a good mother and a member of the sky guard. And most importantly I want to be your wife."

Leo

He gently ran his fingers through her hair, "I'm here," he murmured.

Sasha:

"S-scared. I-I'm s-scared." she mumbled, her face still buried in the pillow

Leo

"Sasha, You're overthinking it," he murmured. "You won't turn out like her, I know it,"

Sasha:

"B-but..... wh-what about the k-kids? I-I'm n-not safe to b-be around. Y-you know it."

Leo

"You won't turn out like her," he murmured, "and I don't care if you hold a knife to my throat, too keep me away, I'll stay with you, forever,"

Sasha:

His hand brushed one of her newer scars and she winced. "I-I h-heard M-Mathious t-talking to T-Trilla one day a-and..... H-he said, 'She's exactly like her mother was at that age.' a-and I-I w-was c-confused b-because T-Trilla was my m-mom. B-but n-now I know the t-truth. A-and th-that means i-if She was r-raised like me. I w-w-will t-turn out l-like h-her." she twitched slightly with barely suppressed sobs. "A-and th-that m-makes me n-not s-safe to b-be around."

Leo

He kept gently tracing her scars.

Sasha:

She shrugged. "I-I..... " she trailed off, barely keeping in sobs

Leo

He gently traced the scars on her back, "I don't understand about what?"

Sasha:

She shook her head. "You don't understand."

Leo

"Not go me,"

Sasha:

She burried her face in the pillow. Wanting to scream about how unfair the world was. She said something but it was so muffled by the pillow it sounded like "Ess A wm." (Yes I am)

Leo

"You're not broken to me,' he murmured.

Sasha:

She let out a soft despairing cry. "Why do I have to be so broken!?!"

Leo

"I guess we'll have to figure that out. " hd murmured.

Sasha:

She nodded, looking up at him. "What about the kids?"