Me and my father never got along. Ever. Period. It has gotten better, mostl. He hasn’t hit me since we moved into the apartment. I can’t talk to my sister, cause she tries to forget that time period, and she thinks he was justified. Last night, he came into my room and started screaming at me. About how he was sending me to therapy and they would give me zombie meds (They aren’t called that, but they make you into a zombie). he said a lot of stuff, but now more than ever, I honestly think he hates me. (I can be a brat, I know that) I just want to talk.
(PS my dad never did anything like that (sexual assult) though me, my mother, and sister are slightly scared for me and my siste. He watches videos of men doing horrible things to little girls. (I got that information from my mother) my sister can be mean, but I love her. She has experienced most of my life’s problem. Like drug dealers coming to our house)
Yup. I turn 13 in March.
You said you were 12, right? That mean we are he same age!
No problem!
@Flamefrost In crisis help line, multiple seem to fit me. Self harm, suicide, sexual abuse and school don’t
@Riverdawn thank you!
We are are always here for you, even though I’m quite new to the community your my first friend here and you seem like a really nice person
I will check them out. I am not suicidal. I considered running away. It is late, so probably tomorrow. If not then, then Sunday will probably be the day I do it
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ If you don't feel safe calling and talking out loud, there's a chat option in the upper right corner.
https://www.crisistextline.org/ I like this one better (even though I haven't used either of them) because it seems more user-friendly. Plus, it's texting, so there's no risk of being overheard.
https://mashable.com/article/text-chat-crisis-lines/ This site has a list of other sources that could be useful. I think numbers 4, 5, 8, and 10 on the list are the most applicable to your situation.
I hope this helps. And I hope your situation improves.
What kind of help? Also, thank you. The thing with my finge nails helped, and so did my one frie being funny
Ho. Ly. Cow. I'd express my shock at your situation, but I don't think that's important right now. Others have already done it. Help IS available. You just need to find it – or let someone else find it for you, which is what I plan on doing.
After spending the last 20 minutes or so using my finger nails to torture myself, I feel minutely better
I don’t even know why it is so bad. Why am I so stressed now? Normally, it is stressfull, and last night was worse, but I didnt think it was this much worse
I'm so sorry that you have to go though this.
Hi?
I am home alone, so no-one will question anything I do
Yeah. I am mostly okay. I keel moving my finger. Pain helps. I might irritate a cat and pour alchaul on it
oh dear..... I hope everything's okay...
I am digging my fingernails into my hands, but it is to temporary of a releif
I am starting to feel numb. I can’t feel anything. (Not a medical thing, i can still feel my body and everything, just...in my brain. It is horrible. I want it back. Even sadness. I am starting to hyperventilat.
I will.
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