I'm considering ending my life.
I feel so alone, so lost, so sad, so depressed. My friends in real life are using me. I can't stop crying. I feel so horribly alone and I hate it. I can't tell anyone because they'll... well, I don't know.
I guess it runs in the family. My dad's brother did it before I was born. My mother tells me she had depression when she was my age, too.
My friends are using me.
They wouldn't care if I did it.
That's why I haven't told them.
But I know you guys would, and that's why I'm telling you.
I'm also telling you because I trust you guys. I trust you guys so much. You would know what to do. You guys can help me. Please.
I've prayed to God that He'll somehow tell me everything's going to be alright.
Please help me. I'm so sorry about everything mean I've ever done or said.
I love you guys, forever and always.
~ Em 🖤
Good job in praying to God. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and no one can come to the Father except through him. I'd lived a life with uncertainty and attempts to go my own way in darkness and try to find happiness with a life without God. That was impossible.
Echo, it's way more simple to come to the Father now because Jesus had made that way for you by dying on the cross and taking on all our sins, taking the blows for all of us from the wrath of God.
You don't need to work for your salvation where you can have peace and joy. Go to a quiet place and pray. Surrender yourself to God and confess your sins to Him, repent and believe in Christ, the only true Savior. Repenting means to turn away from you sin and run away. Not literally lol.
Let God take control as the true King in your life, and He will adopt you as His Child, not a rebel any longer.
I've done it, and I know the true peace, hope and joy in Christ. I hope you found it helpful.
@Echomoon You mean the world to us too!
My Great Grandma (GG) just past away, she was an amazing influence in my life. Your sufferings made me think of her. She had a great many sufferings, breathing, strength, many. But yet, she persevered through those with joy. She had something much greater to look forward to... she looked forward to being with Christ. I remember her saying something like this, "I won't be as sad as you would be, cuz' i would be Him!"
Your here for a reason. He has a plan for you.
Echo, you have a Savior, and He's here, (spiritually), His loving arms open wide, waiting for you. Waiting for you to come to Him and become a Child of God. God sent His Son Jesus, to sacrifice Himself in place of you. He took your sins and paid the price for your sake... because He loves you Echo.
"For the wages of sin is DEATH..." He took that wage in place of you. We all love you Echo, and want the best for you. I love because the Father first loved me.
Google Answers:
When used in conjunction with dates, BCE means "Before Common Era" and CE means "Common Era." "Common Era" is an alternative name for the traditional calendar era "Anno Domini" ("in the Year of Our Lord"), abbreviated AD. BCE is an alternative name for the traditional calendar era "Before Christ," abbreviated BC.
... well then xD
From Google:
B.C. stands for “before Christ” and A.D. stands for “after death.”
This is only half correct. How could the year 1 B.C. have been “before Christ” and A.D. 1 been “after death”? B.C. does stand for “before Christ.” A.D. actually stands for the Latin phrase anno domini, which means “in the year of our Lord.” The B.C./A.D. dating system is not taught in the Bible. It actually was not fully implemented and accepted until several centuries after Jesus’ death.
Pananah changed her name to Brightberry
Brightberry your pananah?
i dissed religion.....? and stop dont argue about when born. its in the roman census and um dont want to offend anyone, his father was something forgot name but yeah thats not religion. he ;lived throughout AD and Constantine is also great cause he stopped crucifixion of christians and jews i believe. (after Jesus's death)
Dragon, Jesus' (Idk how to type that) birth signified the change from BC to AD, which the AD always confused me. Because AD stands for "After Death". Christians (like me and my family) believe Jesus was the Son of God. He completed over 100 prophoecies (dont know how to spell that). Even historians cant deny that he was born to a virgin, was born on the night that BC changed to AD, they cant even deny that BC stands for "Before Christ" they cant explain using science how Jesus rose from the dead.
I haven't read all fo the commentz so I'll say......... x deep breath x Idk :)
Wait, did Dawnfeather just dis religion?
XD
*Claiming
If I remember correctly, Jesus was actually born in 3 A.D., but it's kinda confusing about the since 'B.C.' stands for 'Before Christ'. Christians believe that Jesus is God's son who died to save us from our sins, Jews believe that Jesus was (from what I understand) a false prophet who was claiming to be God's son. Mormons believe in Jesus, but don't believe that all they need to do it get into heaven is to believe in him. I'm pretty sure, Muslims claim that Jesus was a prophet, but I'm not entirely sure.
This post actually gave me the courage to tell my Youth Group leader last night that I have depression. It made me feel like I didn't have so much weighing on me.
I know I’m pretty late to be commenting on this post but it is to important: ECHO AND FLAMEFROST AND WHOEVER ELSE IS THINKING THAT, WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU THINKING?! Commiting suicide will just cause more destruction! Your life may seem horrible now, but look ahead in life. Most of the people (friends or bullies/enemies for example) won’t matter at all when you grow up, most likely get married, and start a family! So why kill yourself when good things are gonna happen in the future? You’ll just miss out on literally everything. And KEEP PRAYING!!!!!
:D you are the best too;)
Thanks Dawnfeather for your kind words :) you guys are the best
DONT EVER! I might not belive in religion but DONT EVER! YOU are special. YOU are awesome. YOU are you. and thats what YOU should be. YOU should be YOURSELF. YOU should be YOU! Dont let ANYONE BRING YOU DOWN! WE build eachother up. WE DONT Tear ourselves down, WE ARE A TEAM! You are one of the nicest member on here!
Oh yeahhhhh…. I remember that..... That was when you made that post about making private posts to other members..... When I freaked out at you, sorry about that
I saw your first comment Flamefrost and I wrote it out to both of you. And yea, Dragon. That's really sweet and admirable.
It's okay, and the comments on this post have really helped me, even if they were directed toward you.
Oh my gosh........ Flamefrost, I just reread your first comment and I apparently misread it the first time. I'm so sorry. I feel like I've completely ignored you. I'm so sorry and I had no idea you felt that way. I thought you said "how else can I use those words?" instead of "how could you use my exact words?" I'm so sorry
Thank you so much Dragon, and Flamefrost was right xD I'm pretty sure that's the most heartfelt comment on the MB. Love you guys :)
Oh okay
And I commented on Alternative Ending
Being a teenager or a preteen is hard (trust me I know). You start feeling emotions that you through you knew how to control, but 1000 times stronger. Friendships you thought were good are put to the test, and sometimes prove to not be as strong as you thought. You feel like things are spiraling out of control faster then you thought possible. Somethings are truly out of your control, but you have to stay strong. Don't give up. Things get harder. But don't give up.
It may seem like no one cares...
but they do.
We live in a modern age with the ability to communicate with people on the other side of the world just by hitting a series of buttons. Echo, you have become an important part of this message board, you touch the lives of people you may never meet in real life. You make us laugh, you encourage us to keep making fan art and fan fiction. You bring something special to this site that I don't think anyone else can.
You've done a brave thing, admitting there is something wrong. Now that you've done that, it will make this burden easer to carry, but there are still many challenge ahead of you. Stay strong Echo, stay strong.
Thank you, Wispi. That made me feel so much better. I won't ever forget it. But God made this earth not justnfor me, but for all of you. He loves us all so much, and I love you all so much too. I love you all :)
Phew.... >.< U got me scared there! ;-;
I'm so sorry about it though. And I'm glad you found an activity you love that keeps you active. :3
Thank you Dragon :) that really helped. As for your friends, once you're certain whether or not they're using you, if they are, STUFF THEM :D
Echo, like I said, always caring for others before yourself! That's why we lov ya!!!
Flamefrost I kinda feel bad for you since you aren't religious...
Oh Echo, this is horrible. I actually know what this feels like because I'm going through something similar.
In real life I don't get out much, and when I do, I'm super quiet and nervous. As a result of this, I only have 2 friends, but in the last year and a half we've been growing further apart. Sometimes I feel like they are using me, or they don't even care what I'm doing. Last few times I've seen them all they want to take about is boys at their church, I go to a different church, so I have no clue who they are talking about most of the time, and when I try to get them to talk about other things, the conversation always goes back to the boys at their church.
For a long time I kept this all to myself, but then I spilled. I told my mom everything. I have to say telling my mom was the best this I could have done, she helped me through it.
My advice for you Echo is to tell someone you trust witch you have already done, then find a new group of friends.
YAY!!! THAT'S OUR ECHO!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY NOW!!!! That takes a load off my mind.
Harsh, Starlight, but you do make good points. Echo, the goal in life is to be happy, right? If you decide to end your life now, you will die in disappointment, shame, or fear, none of which are happy emotions.
This is all I’m going to say
I hope you don’t make the bigggest mistake in you life by going through with this.
xoxo ~Starlight
You need to snap out of it!
Echo what will you gain ?
You will be missing out on the good things in life.
So true ;-;
I literally starting crying when I saw this because if you think about it, it really is true. It's so true...so true
Echo....please don't leave.....we need, care about, love, and can't live without YOU!! We love ya. Never forget how much God loves you.
This stuff always makes me cry ;-;
You are so precious to us and this Message Board! We love you, okay, Echo? We love you. And so does God. He loves you SO much....I can't even begin to say how much he loves you. You are an amazing young girl and you have such courage to tell us those things. Lot's of people in this world look up to you, like me. Whenever I'm sad, I come onto the Message Board and I get comments from you that literally put a smile on my face and bring me close to tears. You are amzazing! You are amazing! You are amazing! And I thank God everyday for people like you. I can't imagine what you are going through, but please know that killing yourself isn't they way. Jesus is the way. He is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Him.
WE LOVE YOU ECHO!!!!!!!!
Echo I know how you feel right now. Like the whole worlds against you. Its not. I have really deep depression to, suicidal thoughts run in my family, my oldest brother had them, my mom, and my cousin. I've felt like taking my own life multiple times, how to do it, when I should, but I realized that it would pain my family. To have their youngest and only daughter at the same time. You need to talk to someone like Rainflight said, face to face. You have a future ahead of you, dont take it now!! You are supportive when I feel upset, dont take the treasure you are away from everyone!! I listen to music like Riverbreeze when Im in my deepest depression, those songs are the ones I suggest to you. God made you for a reason, you may not see that reason now, but you will!! God sent his only Son to earth to be sacrificed for our sins, so we wouldnt have to pay the price. This just shows how much you mean to Him!! I was born to a family where we fight a lot we cant go 24 hours without there being yelling, but when we go to church, that yelling stops, there is peace. Its actually the reason I have depression. I have a few friends that have used me, but it is hard to ditch them. Echo you NEED to ditch them, they are most likely to be the reason you are feeling this way. Dont take the precious life God gave you. I will have my family pray!!
Echo and Flamefrost:
God loves you. PLEASE never forget that! You were put on this Earth for a reason. You might not know what that reason is, but there is a reason. Just like sheep, everyone can go astray. You might want to go your own way. But, Jesus knows your every move. And he died to save me and you. Our God proves that he cares for you, each and every day. Look outside at the sunshine and count all the blessings He's given you. Don't forget to count yourself because you might not know it, but God loves you and made you just the way you are supposed to be. I've found a Bible verse that I hope will help you remember that Christ is right next to you, holding your hand and leading you through the dark times:
"God chose you out of all the people on Earth as his cherished personal treasure." Deuteronomy 14:2
God, the Savior and Lord of Lords and King of Kings, chose YOU to be his Cherished Personal Treasure.....just think about that....
Whenever I feel sad and lonely, I listen to these songs. They lift my spirits. But, don't just listen to them. Close your eyes and feel them. Feel God in your heart, trying to talk to you. Ignore the lyrics on the screen and listen to the lyrics in your heart and soul:
Come Alive (Dry Bones) by Lauren Daigle:
https://youtu.be/e7PUW1olxx8
Breathe by Johnny Diaz:
https://youtu.be/bf3sJGF7fmo
Chainbreaker by Mercyme:
https://youtu.be/JGYjKR69M6U\
Please, never forget how much you mean to Him...and to us. And those "friends" who are using you, don't hang out with them anymore. They clearly don't deserve you. You are such a better person than they are. You are kind, thoughtful, brilliant, beautiful, and AMAZING! This Messgae Board and this world would not be the same without you here. Please, talk to your parents and never give up hope! Never give up! Stay strong! Stay amazing! You will make it through this. We are here for you. Now, and forever.
I've been struggling for months, and this is what I always tell myself, hope this helps:
God didn't make me for nothing. He made everyone special, including me. He gave me the power to breath, to fight, to forgive, to know my mistakes. He gave you the power to be brave and share your thoughts with us. Don't let your friends drive you to suicide. It's not worth it. Whenever I cut myself or sulk on the bed I used to think that I'm the cause of my family's struggle. That they would be more peaceful if I was dead. But that is NOT true. Your parents care about you, and if you took your life think about there shattered hearts. Your depression and suicide will become contadious to your family, and they will to be depressed. They will be miserable forever. You should tell your parents or someone you trust can help you in person. Screw those friends that use you, just know that you're not alone sis. All your friends on MB and your family loves you and cares about you. I know what it’s like to want to die. I know the feeling of hopelessness. I know the sense of loneliness. I know the soul crushing despair and longing to fade into nothingness.
I know you don’t have to make that date with death. Suicide does not end the chances of life getting worst, suicide elimates the possibility of ever getting better. If your friends use you or dont care about you, then they aren't friends. Death is forever. While you live, you have the power to change things, even if it feels impossible. Once you are gone, your choice is over. Don't kill yourself not tonight, not tomarrow, not ever. If you kill yourself, someone has to be the one to find your body. Imagine that person is your mother, your sibling, or even your dog. They can never forego that image. Any bad remark they have ever made to you will replay in their minds until the day they die. Your dog won't understand why you didn't wake up. If anything, don't do it for your pet. Their lives revolve around you. You I beg you, dont take your life please.. stay strong. :)
Besides, taking your life is a mortal sin and you'll go to hell, then your suffering will never be over.
Think this: Life is completely unpredictable. You don't know what could happen tomorrow. Tomorrow could be the day where everything finally falls in to place.
But wait, you killed yourself today.
You're gone. Your family is in shambles. Your old friends wonder where they went wrong. If you had just made it one more day, there would be no hurt. You would have started getting better. You'd look back on these dark times as a distant memory. If you just make it through each day at a time, your tomorrow will finally show up. Your solution will arrive. Don't cut your life short because things didn't fall in to place on your time frame. The Universe had a different plan all along.
Sometimes I don't know why I don't say these things to myself when I listen to my hacker's voice messages. ;-;
You're more than a sister to me, your my best friend despite I never met you. I will never forgive myself if you take your own life.
I have no idea how you could ever have depression.......... I feel really sad sometimes but that's because I've had a bad day. And, Echo, the ABSOLUTE POSTIVELY worst thing to do is kill yourself. Because, then you'll be causing everyone you love more pain AND more dpressoin. That is why you must stay strong and help your family. Just think about good things, like Lily!
oh . . . my . . . God . . . how did you use my exact words?? I'm struggling through depression too, and suicidal thoughts. But don't give up. From my own experiences, I know that death can sound tempting and a blessed relief. But think of the people that would miss you. The ones that would cry for days and weeks on and from their heart being ripped out from loss. Keep living for those people. And the rest of us on the Message Board: we're some of those people. Never give up.