I can't believe you came back. I'm literally crying. you're my best friend. you're my sister. don't leave again. even though I know you're doing somewhat better, I wouldn't be able to take it if you leave here for good. ive already said everything I needed to the last two times I replied to you.

don't you dare leave. none of this is your fault. none of it. please let me help. promise me every time you feel bad, you'll tell me. don't leave me again. you just came back and I can't take it without you. you've made the hoof print in my life and now you'll never be able to un-make it. this past year, ive been my worst. ive been switching around medications because I cant get by without them. ive lost my humour and every day, all the time, my mind's been spinning around about you. Wondering if you've left me without a goodbye, wondering how you're doing, wondering if you're in pain, wondering if you'll ever come back. it's all been you you you and ive basically lost my sanity over it.

im so glad you're back. ive spent so much time crying and praying for you.

I love you so, so so so so, so SO SO SO SO much. Do you want me to list everything I love about you? Well too bad, because I AM GOING TO. You are:

- Smart

- Beautiful

- Amazing

- Supportive

- Lovely

- The best

- Always there for me

- My soul sister

I am yours. whatever you want me to do, I'll do it. I'd set the world on fire, break my wings, tear up my feathers, break myself, die. I'd do it all. I'd do it over and over and over, if that's what you wanted. I'd do whatever it takes to make you stay, to make you happy.

don't go. don't leave for good. stay. I swear I'll always love you. don't go. everyone here will miss you if you do. it's just - you've finally come back, and the thought of you leaving again is too much. please.