Well I have nowhere to talk about my problems so instead I'm just going to angrily type out a long paragraph about how today was a bad day. (wasn't to bad from someone elses eyes but from mine it changed a lot of things)
So today was going to be a normal day. Then I found it was picture day. I know it's measely and all but I hate having my photo taken. So after I got that over I went into class, blah blah blah everything is normal. I make it to lunch where one of my best friend and I are talking. Everyone at school hates my best friend, I'm not sure why though. Then suddenly as we are just talking and stuff someone butts into the conversation. We ask them not to eavesdrop and all but they don't listen. I don't know how but eventually the conversation turned into the entire school was asking about a secret that could ruin my life. For the rest of lunch and studyhall everyone is literally begging for me to tell them something that will ruin my life. On top of that, someone said out loud to the whole school "is your secret that you're gay?" To be clear, it wasn't. But I sorta am, sorta not but I'm not quite ready to tell anyone in real life. I didn't know whether to lie and say I'm straight or tell the truth and out myself to the whole school. I simply responded with no, because I'm polysexual which really isn't either. Then came studyhall. Me and my best friend are working on this homework assignment when she suddenly asks me out of the blue "are you sure you aren't gay?" So doing this I accidentally outed myself to her. I ended up explaining it all. At first I thought it went smoothly, but then I asked her "do you think me liking girls is a sin?" and she tells me yes. It honestly hurts so bad that someone who tells you "it's ok to be different" repeatedly after you tell them something so important that has been weighing on them for five years and then go on and say that difference is a sin. Every time she looked at me for the rest of the day, I could tell she thought of me differently. There is a whole lot more petty stuff but I'd rather not get into that as these were just the big things. And in case you were wondering, the secret that could ruin my life does not involve anything breaking the law, my sexuality, my gender, or anything like that. So yeah, that was my awful day. I don't need sympathy I just needed somewhere to put it so I can get my frustration out.