Well I have nowhere to talk about my problems so instead I'm just going to angrily type out a long paragraph about how today was a bad day. (wasn't to bad from someone elses eyes but from mine it changed a lot of things)
So today was going to be a normal day. Then I found it was picture day. I know it's measely and all but I hate having my photo taken. So after I got that over I went into class, blah blah blah everything is normal. I make it to lunch where one of my best friend and I are talking. Everyone at school hates my best friend, I'm not sure why though. Then suddenly as we are just talking and stuff someone butts into the conversation. We ask them not to eavesdrop and all but they don't listen. I don't know how but eventually the conversation turned into the entire school was asking about a secret that could ruin my life. For the rest of lunch and studyhall everyone is literally begging for me to tell them something that will ruin my life. On top of that, someone said out loud to the whole school "is your secret that you're gay?" To be clear, it wasn't. But I sorta am, sorta not but I'm not quite ready to tell anyone in real life. I didn't know whether to lie and say I'm straight or tell the truth and out myself to the whole school. I simply responded with no, because I'm polysexual which really isn't either. Then came studyhall. Me and my best friend are working on this homework assignment when she suddenly asks me out of the blue "are you sure you aren't gay?" So doing this I accidentally outed myself to her. I ended up explaining it all. At first I thought it went smoothly, but then I asked her "do you think me liking girls is a sin?" and she tells me yes. It honestly hurts so bad that someone who tells you "it's ok to be different" repeatedly after you tell them something so important that has been weighing on them for five years and then go on and say that difference is a sin. Every time she looked at me for the rest of the day, I could tell she thought of me differently. There is a whole lot more petty stuff but I'd rather not get into that as these were just the big things. And in case you were wondering, the secret that could ruin my life does not involve anything breaking the law, my sexuality, my gender, or anything like that. So yeah, that was my awful day. I don't need sympathy I just needed somewhere to put it so I can get my frustration out.
Things should get better in their own time.
At least, in my experience, if the friendship is strong enough it can overcome this difficulty, and her bond with you will allow her to normalize your sexuality and become more tolerant.
We’re not really in any role plays together, but I do hope you know that I’m reading and I care that you are able to come to terms with yourself.
gosh, people can be so stupid. I'm so sorry. Can you tell her something for me? You totally don't have to, just a suggestion.
Welp, if you want, tell her this: "Someone told me to tell you this: Just because someone is different, doesn't mean you have to act different around them. So snap out of it and get thinking: if you truly cared about someone and they confessed that they're polysexual, welp, would you just dump em and sashay off? Nuh uh, girly."
It's not being different that means something, it's being who you are. So if you are WHO YOU ARE, then God should know that. I'll be praying that everything goes well for you.
This is something I wrote in one of my posts (https://www.theguardianherd.com/messageboard/herd-chat/hey-herd) a lil while back, but I'm say it again...
"A lil note to all ya'll:
You are all amazing. Even if you don't think so, you are. I was actually thinking of running away from my home before I joined this place because I felt so lost and hopeless and everything. But you guys just make me happy and laugh and want to cry from joy. I love ya'll SO much (even though I for sure don't know all of you). Don't let em bullies and brats stop you from being who you are. STOMP your hoof and smirk. Hehehehe. Slap em wit your wing (don't do it actually but you get what I mean :). YOU ARE BETTER. YOU ARE STRONGER. YOU ARE LOVED."
~Stormsun💦
ooof, I'm sorry, those people are jerks. Plain and simple. I really don't understand what's so wrong or bad with identifying with something other than the "usual" straight and cis thing. It's not like you can control or choose your identity or gender, it's just the way you are. I hope things get better for you :)
well said, friendo :)
Thank you all, I'm probably just overreacting though :)
This is very late (like always) but that must be bad toady someone asked me if I was a boy or a girl and oi..... you know and I’m so sorry this happened! So I found out this. It’s not to be taken to seriously and these are little but in the bible it does say it’s a sin of course I don’t agree with that but it also says you can not touch died animal skin (footballs are cow skin) so yeah I wish I could help more and sometimes it helps to wait out the storm. But you still have to face it. Again sorry if it didn’t help!
The gender thing, that must be hard on you. But yeah, life isn't fair and it decided to give us pain about people not accepting us
@Hazey yep and it sometimes I have such a want to be called a boy.... and life Is not fare but you only get one life so live life not in fear but in uhhh idk but you know what I mean...
@Aspenray Yeah ik what you mean
Oh my gosh... I'm so sorry man. That sucks a lot. My heart goes out to you