Why isn't God helping Rain? I'm so scared she's already gone.
It seems like everyone I meet starts to suffer, like I'm some sort of bad luck charm...
I feel like He's abandoned me, left me alone in the dark, and taken the light with him.
I'm so sorry to be making this all about me again, but I just feel like he isn't helping me, or my friends, or anyone.
Me, with my antidepressants malfunctioning and with my panic attacks.
Sharrow, who hasn't answered me in so long and is in so much pain.
Sophia, who doesn't want to listen to us and is convinced we don't care... but is so, so wrong.
So Ive been thinking about giving up. About taking pills that'll put me to sleep forever. I just want this pain to end.
Maybe when I'm gone, you'll stop suffering. Maybe, the light will come back.
The funny thing is, the last time I talked about this, Sophia was here to tell me not to, to tell me everything she's about to go against now...
I'm just thinking about it. To be honest, I don't really know why I'm telling you all. I feel like you guys would start fussing and then I'd feel guilty for getting you all terrified.
I'm just thinking of doing it, I'm not going to... yet...
I'm not leaving yet. I just need to see your texts, to give me more hope, being mine is starting to fade.
I love you.