Once I did a post entitled "I Trust You", stating that I trust you guys with anything personal. Well, I want to see if my faith is proven correct. I also once did a post about an online horse simulator, Hill Cliff Horse. I need to tell you guys something about it.
So on HCH I had a really great friend. Her name was Rusty. We talked and laughed everytime we saw each other (this was back when I played HCH all the time) until I messed everything up.
So one time on was on her server, we were talking as usual, when an old friend of hers joined. It was clear that they hadn't seen each other for a long time, so I left to give them some privacy. Then I looked at the server when I had exited it and was brought back to the server page. I have no idea what made me do it. I have no idea what made me do the horrible, horrible thing that messed everything up. But I went back into the server and watched the chat. I only got one line that her friend said, but I wished I had just waited until her friend had left. Since Rusty was the one hosting the server, she was allowed to look at the people on her server. Well, she must have, because she suddenly said my name in the chat: "Echomoon?"
Right after, her friend simply said "-_-", so I knew he wanted to kill me. I replied with "I'm sorry Rusty. I'll leave. And I won't come back."
I left the server.
I stared at it on the server page for a few seconds, then exited the game to play something else. From then on I didn't play HCH very much at all.
Well, yesterday the guilt and sorrow overwhelmed me, so I entered HCH, joined the main server, and practically spammed the chat with "Has anyone seen a mare called Rusty?!" and so forth.
Finally, a guy called Netflix replied to me (as everyone else on the server ignored me).
"Rusty left the game."
He left the server.
I never told her how sorry I was, or what a horrible friend I had been. But I knew I deserved what had happened.
I am so sorry that you now know i'm not just a jolly, humorous little girl after all. Please do not make the same mistake I did. I trust you guys that you will all be - well, yourselves - about this. I haven't told anyone in my life (except for you guys of course) about this secret. You people are the first to know. I am so sorry if you think much less of me now, but I deserve it.
~A Blue Echomoon