Time and time again I've scared you all, and now I have confirmed I am the largest idiot there is. What kind of a friend am I? "I'm going to kill myself now, love ya bye". How horrendous.
Don't forgive me. Please be mad at me. It'll make it so much easier. I don't deserve your forgiveness. There has to be a limit, hasn't there? Isn't your patience running out? Aren't you sick and tired of hearing me constantly talk about depression, suicide, bad things, me me me? Of me constantly scaring you left right and centre, even though I always seem to change my mind?
There is no good future with me. I'm going to keep hurting you. All of you.
Do you want me to stay? Really?
Be honest.
Do you want to live in constant fear, with me whining about my life's problems?
Do you really want to be my friend? I'm the worst possible friend material; desperate, clingy, self-centred and idiotic.
How can you ever forgive me?
I keep doing this and I'm sure it's making you all sick and tired of it, no matter what you may type through the screen.
I am the worst. I feel like each time I do this, I just dismissively say "lol sorry" like I accidentally spilt your drink. I feel like each time I don't really care about the consequences because I expect you to forgive me. That's all of your problem: you're all too dang sweet and wonderful for your own good.
If you want me to stay, I will. You don't deserve the pain I would've inflicted upon you all, even if you'll be so much better off without me.
God. I hate this. All of it. As far as I'm concerned, the people on this message board are the only light in this godforsaken dark world.
It was unfair of me to say my irl friends don't care about me; they do, they just don't check up on me as much. Funny thing is, the reason I think that is because approximately a year ago, we'd see each other at school everyday. And now that none of them go to my high school, I feel like they've abandoned me, which of course they haven't. I miss them.
I wish I could meet you all. But I'm pretty sure I'm the youngest here; you'd all be weighted down by me AGAIN if we ever do decide to meet up.
So... I guess... do you forgive me? For everything I've done to you all and for everything I'm going to do?
And... do you want me to stay?
Look, Echo, you don’t understand that it’s better knowing your alive, than you never talking to us and letting assume you dead, like with Rainfeather. And guess what?
I’m a BIGGER idiot than you will ever be!
And anyways, that’s a part of friendship! You can’t have a good friend without that little bit of an obnoxious one, that selfish one, that who talks to much xD. Friendship means we stick together throughout our good and our bad days. Got it?
We will always be here for you. Like i said in my other comment. Before i joined i kinda "stalked" you on the MB. I was thinking of running away or just doing something to get me out of my life. I was reading through the Herd Chat and I saw YOUR post. I was so inspired that you held together with everything going on in your life. This isn't a joke. This actually happened. Its all because of you. I forgive you. Cause that what friends do. Im short on time so this is all I can write right now.
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Thank you so much! And uh.. which post did you happen to see? Or are you talking about the goodbye post?
@Echomoon Idk it was a realy old post of yours. Before i even joined.
it might've been either "I Trust You" or "I Need A Saviour To Heal My Pain.."
Of course we forgive you Echomoon!!!!!! Of course we want you to stay, of course we, I, really want to be your friend, an actual friend of yours. And of coursewe want you back. It is better if we know you are still here, than if you were gone or dead. Just remember, Dont give up hope.
Of course we forgive you. Yes this world is some what dark.but we just need to keep your head up gonna give you a link to listen to a really cool song.
remember You are a Queen
No you're not Echo. You're not an idiot in the slightest. You asked for our help and prayers. There is NOTHING selfish about that.
YES I do want to be your friend.
YES I care about you as much as I say.
YES, I want to hear about your problems because there might be something I can do to help.
YES, of course I'll forgive you. But there was nothing to forgive in the first place.
YES I REALLY WANT YOU TO STAY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND I'LL MISS YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH AND DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME THAT YOU DONT DESERVE IT!!!
YOU DO.
Emily Jessica Reid, as soon as you read this comment, call me. As. Soon. As. You. Read. This. Read me? Okay?
okay