Funny how you should promise to never leave again, to never fall out of touch. To tell us we're your best friends one day, then completely sever any contact with you the next?
Irony is so cruel... "I love you all. I will never leave you."
You're convinced we don't care. You're convinced no one cares.
You really have absolutely no idea how many tears have fallen from my eyes because of you, do you?
You don't know how many times my heart has shattered for you, do you?
You were my best friend. I would have gladly given up my life for you in a heartbeat.
You were more than a friend. You were my sister, despite never meeting you in real life. Please don't leave.
If you ever see this, Sophia, know that I'm using your own words against you. Know that we all care. That we're not faking it.
Know that I'm so furious with you because you say you're not good enough. I'm fuming because you want to lose the light.
I'm angry because you believe that no matter how many times we tell you you're an amazing, beautiful, smart, kind, nice, caring, cute, friendly, one-of-a-kind best friend you are, you always believe that we're lying, that you aren't, and that you never will be.
You, along with so many other people on the MB, were the first person I turned to when I felt depressed, awful, useless, hopeless. You were my soul sister, you were my best friend.
x lets out a dry, forced laugh x You know, it's kinda funny... you promised you'd always be there for me, but when I try to be there for you, you turn me away. You turn us away.
I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at the you who's convinced nobody cares. That there's no hope left. That nobody can save you.
But you have no idea how wrong you are. We all love you, Rain. There are people on the MB who have never even met you who are mourning, because they understand just how much pain we're in.
So Rain, if you're reading this now, don't you dare click away. Don't you DARE say "she's just making this up... she doesn't care..." because that's a LIE! You've allowed Lucifer to DECIEVE you.
Rain, if you're reading this... please let me know you're still there.
Please come back to me.